My Story and Mission
For Latter-day Saint men who feel alone in pornography recovery
I’m Hayden Worwood — a husband, father, PA-C, DMSc, and recovering pornography addict.
I built this site for the man who is tired of hiding. The man who keeps starting over. The man who loves God, loves his family, and still feels stuck in a cycle he hates.
If that is you, I want you to know this first: you are not crazy, you are not alone, and you are not beyond God’s reach. I know what shame, spiritual distance, low motivation, secrecy, and self-hatred can feel like. I also know recovery is possible one honest step at a time.
Why I Built This
Pornography addiction has been part of my story since I was young. I was exposed early, and over time it became one of the ways I tried to escape pain, loneliness, stress, and shame. For years I carried it quietly and wondered why I could not just be better.
I served a mission. I believed in God. I wanted to be good. I also struggled on my mission and after my mission, which made the shame even heavier. I thought if I prayed harder, read more, served more, or became more religious, the problem would disappear. Instead, I often felt more disconnected from God and more disappointed in myself.
My recovery started in 12-step rooms. Since then, I have been involved in SA, paid support groups, group intensives, sponsorship, daily reach outs, and other recovery work. I still attend a 12-step meeting weekly, attend an online support group weekly, have daily reach out partners, work with a sponsor, and sponsor other men.
Recovery is real life. It is awkward sometimes. It is humbling. It is spiritual. It brings up fear, honesty, resentment, hope, relationships, and identity. It asks a man to stop hiding and start telling the truth.
One thing has become clearer to me than almost anything else: the foundation of recovery must be spiritual. If my view of God is built on fear, shame, distance, or false ideas about who He is, my identity suffers. When my identity suffers, my thoughts, attitudes, choices, and relationships follow.
This site exists to help men begin rebuilding that foundation.
What I Hope This Site Becomes
My vision is simple: I want this to become one place where addicts can find tools, readings, practices, and support for the recovery journey. I especially want it to help Latter-day Saint men, men of faith, husbands, and fathers who are trying to recover from pornography and sexual addiction.
I know what it feels like to search for answers at night and wonder where to start. My hope is that this site gives men a clear next step. Read one article. Watch one video. Try one practice. Reach out to one person. Talk to God honestly.
Over time, I plan to share weekly blog posts, YouTube videos, guides, recovery tools, workbooks, courses, and self-directed resources. The bigger framework I keep coming back to is spiritual healing, self healing, relational healing, and daily maintenance.
Spiritual Healing
Rebuilding a real relationship with God and learning to talk to Him with emotional honesty.
Self Healing
Learning who you are, what you feel, what you need, and how shame has shaped the way you see yourself.
Relational Healing
Practicing honesty, connection, repair, and presence with the people closest to you.
A Note About My Background
I am a PA-C with a Doctor of Medical Science degree. My healthcare background shapes how I think about behavior, stress, addiction, the body, and healing. It is part of my perspective, but it is not the main reason I am building this.
The main reason is that I am a recovering addict myself. I know what it is like to sit in a meeting, make reach outs, work with a sponsor, sponsor other men, wrestle with shame, and keep coming back. I know what it is like to want God and still feel far from Him.
I believe men need practical tools. We need structure. We need honesty. We need connection. And we need to know that God sees us, walks with us, and is willing to meet us where we are.
You do not have to hide here.
A Quick Disclaimer
Even though I am a medical provider, I am not your medical provider. This site is a personal, educational, and faith-based recovery resource. It is here to offer insight, tools, and encouragement along the path.
This site is not medical advice, mental health treatment, trauma therapy, crisis intervention, diagnosis, or a replacement for professional care. If you are in crisis, having suicidal thoughts, dealing with abuse, looking for trauma therapy, or needing mental health treatment, please contact a licensed professional, call or text 988 (Suicide Hotline) in the United States, call 911, or go to your nearest emergency department as soon as possible.
Start Small
If you feel stuck, ashamed, spiritually distant, or tired of starting over, you do not need to fix your whole life today. Start with one honest step. Read one article. Watch one video. Try one practice. Tell God the truth.
